I can’t sleeeeeep URGH! I close my eyes and i feel like i have them shut for like an hour…when i look at the time only 5 minutes passed by -__- My thoughts a forcing me to stay up and I hate when this happens! I wish I could just call someone and they could just listen to me and give me advice and tell me what I’m doing wrong and how to fix my life! But i have no one at all! this sucks so bad…i don’t wanna be here any more!
I guess the worst part is going thru all this shit alone! Goin to gyno appointments ad seeing all the happy couples…hubby rubbing his woman’s tummy smiling happy as shit! &+ I walk in with a frown ALONE ready to fuckin cry. Getting cravings in the middle of the night and not being able to bother “my man” bout getting me it. Throwing up every morning and having to hold my own hair back. Having mood swings all alone with no one to calm me down or balance me out or NOTHIN! Getting cramps and curling myself up and crying myself to sleep! I never thought I would feel like this! This is the WORST thing that ever happened to me I swear! &+ now come to find out that if i wanna abort there is a 85% chance that I will not be able to have kids ever again because I’m so far along at this point! Fuck me, right? Im already on OVERLOAD so one more thing to go wrong and I really don’t know where my head is going to be and what I will be capable of doing…
I HATE EVERYONE! I hope you fucking cunts all die! No one deserves to live…the world needs to hurry up and BLOW UP or whatever the fuck is to come! #iwannasleepFOREVER #beingpregnantSUCKS #throwmedownthestairs #myimaginaryfriendswillbreakmyfall #fuckyou #FUCKyou #FUCKYOU
Like I have to vent &+ this is my only option since i apparently have no friends or people who give a shit about me! Tumblr cares more than 90% of the people I see on daily bases. Anyways tomorrow I’m going to the gyno to see if I’m fucking pregnant or not -__- missed my period and I’m prayinggggg that Im in the clear. I’m not tired one bit yet all i want to do is sleep but I can’t cause I’m wide fuckin awake! URGHHHHHHH! FUCK MY LIFE!